Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Sisters, Girls, Friends

this will have to be a recurring blog because i do so love at least the idea of sisters who are not quite blood-relations

today's will be short:
in October of 2008 i met two young ladies at my work-exchange at the alvin ailey school of dance who are among my newest sister-girlfriends
welela mar kindred and anita welch
welela is young at heart and body and spirit--she's a dancer and a model and she's on her way to Paris :)
Sooo fabulous, so beautiful and always aiming to find center (though she never seems far off), I just LOVE Welela because she asks the questions we sometimes forget to ask and she doesn't always have an answer
Two traits I always love in people, especially friends, are honesty and humility
One of my best friends in the world, Ms. (soon to be Dr.--PhD, by the way) Lindsey Alexander is the embodiment of both these things
Never afraid to tell me when my breath stinks (hypothetically) or when I'm acting like a bay in regard to anything, Lindsey, a predecessor to Welela and Anita, is yet another of my sister-girlfriends

Anita, also fabulous as all hell, is on tour right now, living in Pennsylvania. (Sorry babe I'm forgetting the exact name of the production...) but I know that Miss Anita (a few years younger than me and I hope to BE her!) is blowing her lungs out daily in preparation for a play that has something to do (forgive my brain freeze) with African-American history and spiritual and folktales. I'll update you with the name soon. She's pretty fearless and amazing. Her voice is beautiful and she practices ALL the time. I admire her diligence. She walks (regularly) in heels, from 55th and 9th aves, to 107th and something east of 9th.
That is FAR! One time, Anita said to me and Welela, "I love you guys--wait, I'm sorry, is it too soon for that?"

Hence our love relation. Humor, openness, freedom, and love.

I'm telling you about these wonderful women because I never ever would have thought I would meet such beautiful people in such an atmosphere or situation as...work, and volunteer work at that (read: no cash transactions) :)
Ailey--i love you!

Anyway, every Thursday morning, we would all come in with our singular baggage, or multiple loads, if you know me, and storytelling began.
Men (of course), work, respect, ethics, art, anything was a go and though I can't divuge much of the actual context of our conversations, I can tell you that Welela is substituting chocolate for men, and Anita is waiting to be called for Ragtime on Broadway.
We're all moving on up our ladders of life, but it's always good to know you have somebody new to your life who is truly rooting for you.

Anyway, I've gone on too long.
The point: love your sisters. And may they love you richly back.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

my new year

happy new year to me
as of yesterday
because i refused to accept the traditional date that was given me
i had too many things to complain about
too many stuffs that just went wrong
1-my phone was stolen last weekend
2-i'm not in or headed to paris anytime soon
3-i slept wrong on my back and there is a terrible pain from my neck to my left arm/shoulder
4-i am not feeling so rich these days (i'm trying to do away with the term broke--it seems to outweigh the blessings God has given me)
5-i had (watch out) a pending move and am kind of still not sure how i'm going to afford the rent...hope my landlord isn't reading this
6-there's more but the list would get too long...but i will mention my only ex- in life had something to do with my constant crying charades recently

and so, my new year wasn't feeling so new, until yesterday when my move was complete
i am now a lover of solitude (though i've never been too far off)
i am now where i have wanted to be for a while now
i've been dreaming of living alone for a while
i have my own kitchen
i can use my own teapot and make as much or as little tea as i want
(there is definitely something selfish about living alone)
i want to--i need to be selfish right now
there are SO many things i feel i want to accomplish and that i feel i'll be more capable of if i am in my own space as needed

so yesterday was the new beginning i needed
i have house supplies to purchase--a broom, a dustpan, i guess, and other cleaning stuff (i really don't do this whole CLEANTING thing...pray for me)

i am hopeful for this new year
i am full of ambition and possibility
and i believe--which is to say i will force this reality, though I'm sure it will come to me--that the things i want to achieve will take place for me...cause God said so

...so what did God say would happen to you this year?
i pray it all goes well