Monday, February 23, 2009

when it don't work

you know how people say this old piece of wisdom/advice: 
if it ain't broke, don't fix it

i get that-- i even dig it
but i feel like too often, at least I have the tendency to laissez-faire, which is to say, "let things be" that really ought not ever have been

example 1- (and tonight there will be but one...and i'll use fake names as much as i can to not burn bridges but d*%#, doesn't it sometimes feel like people want you to burn them?!?)

you volunteer/work at a place that does not pay you
volunteer=not pay
you do the work
BREAK IN TIME: as i write this post, i realize how bogus i am, but as i am a human, i still feel somehow justified
to continue: they complain no matter that they're not paying you
you may arrive late, but you get the job done 
and YOU'RE NOT GETTING PAID
and no, money isn't everything
but in an economy like this...
well anyway
the thing is, the people running the program (hypothetical, of course) are a bit delusional
they think SO highly of their program that they forget to treat people well
they ask you to do things like go get coffee--for heaven's sake, i thought this was a volunteer gig--perhaps even work exchange, but certainly not a magazine gig

anyway, at last, they threaten you to take away your volunteer post if you can't get in on time--though it will certainly inconvenience them more than you if they clear your space

the problem is--they need you more than you need them
vain thought?
absolutely, but we all know the truth

and the truth is, you've been--which is to say, I have been meaning to move on for a while, but my greedy self has been taken to the thought of "getting something for free" when the reality is NOTHING is free

when i get that through my head--no matter how long it takes--i'm always better for it
when i spend my time and my energy on things that actually matter to me
when i take the effort and put it into stuff that means something REAL to me, i'm ALWAYS better for it
always happier
always fuller
always just gooder (than a mug...and you know how good a mug is--shoutout to b. cathey)

the point, beyond my (potentially drunken) rambling is this:
fill your time with the things that will truly truly bring you joy
not the things you feel like you should do because it will look good on your resume or will make you the better self you think someone else will praise you for being
BE the best that YOU can be--in yourself without outside judgment

you will love yourself more for it
and in turn, you'll be happier
and happiness, is the purpose of living

amen.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

what i love about...brownstones

so, you may or may not know, but i've moved to a deeper sweeter place in brooklyn--still bedstuy but this time i'm alone!
alone, alone, alone :)
but this post is not about living alone
it's about the brownstone
i don't know how long the list will be, but i'll try to make it a number other than 25 (e.g. facebook's recent abundance of "25 things about me and my mama" lists)
here goes:
1-the gate that opens up to my "home sweet home"
2-the steps that lead up to "home sweet home"
3-the one locked door that leads to...you get the point
4-the fact that i only have one flight to walk up once i get inside
5-that in spite of #4, i can say i live in the penthouse apartment
6-the shutters on the windows--they need some work but they're so cool!
7-i only have two neighbors and they're both guys so extra extra cool

ok, that's all i got for now but i'm certain the list will grow
yay brownstones!